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𝔄 𝔐𝔦𝔡𝔴𝔦𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔑𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱'𝔰 𝔇𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔪𝔦𝔫𝔤 𑁍 [WINTER TDM]
Welcome to the Test Drive!
The TDM is welcome to current players and anyone who wants to play in the setting and is encouraged to be used by prospective players. If you are interested in joining the game, you will need to obtain invite from the mod or through an existing member.
For information on the game premise, setting etc, please utilize the navigation pages below. Questions specific to the TDM prompts or the setting can go to the comment thread. Anything else relating to game mechanics can go in the FAQ.
Events in this TDM are considered game canon and occurs immediately after the Chapter II eclipse event between chapters II and III. Any threads in TDM are considered canon as long as both parties agree.
Please make sure to identify in your top levels as either current or new player/characters.
For information on the game premise, setting etc, please utilize the navigation pages below. Questions specific to the TDM prompts or the setting can go to the comment thread. Anything else relating to game mechanics can go in the FAQ.
Events in this TDM are considered game canon and occurs immediately after the Chapter II eclipse event between chapters II and III. Any threads in TDM are considered canon as long as both parties agree.
Please make sure to identify in your top levels as either current or new player/characters.
GAME PAGES
i.
rise:
A Dream's Beginning
rise:
A Dream's Beginning
(cw:nsfwl; ritual sex, mood altering substances )
It begins with a nightmare, the details of which have slipped through your fingers. Only the curling echo of its dread lingers in your chest. Something has snapped you out of a catatonic state: a gust of icy wind whistling through the crack of a window, the soft beating of drums under the melody of strings, the cold kiss of fat snowflakes catching on your eyelashes, the smell of spiced wine and evergreen.
A few things become clear: You are not where you were, and you are not alone.
Feast for Saints
Tonight is a night of celebration for the Lonely Fortress. The horrors have been set aside, replaced with the warm mirth and grace of being alive. Whether this is your first night in the Crucible or your fortieth, all are welcome to partake in this renewing fete under the silver light of a full buttery moon. Snow dances like flower petals in a lazy array, leaving a shallow blanket of white. The fire roars in the hearth of the Great Hall, spreading its warmth throughout its adjacent parlors. Despite murmurings of a recent catastrophic eclipse cleaving the castle twain, its halls and buildings show no sign of decay. The Egregore has been cleansed, balance has been restored. Spirits are high, people are at ease.
If you choose to partake, there are a few select locations where people have gathered to celebrate:
𑁍The Great Hall is open for feasting and dancing. The fortress stores have provided a wintertime feast of roasted meats & vegetables, pies, fresh and aged cheeses, dried fruits, candied nuts, and seeded cakes. The hall smells of spiced honey wine and mulled cider, both packed with a warm and buzzing inebriation that creeps on unexpectedly. A makeshift band of strings and drums plays lively music for people to dance to.
𑁍The Velvet Parlor is a smaller hall branched off of the main festivities for those looking for softer and more intimate comforts under the candlelight. Tonight, its guests pay tribute to celebrate the passion of life and to beckon the sun to rise in a ritualistic tangling of bodies. Here is the place to become a true eater of sin. All furniture has been nudged to line the walls, making way for a sea of cushions and pillows for celebrants to laze upon as they imbibe in strong, distilled spirits, as the air above them swirls with a sweet, toasty incense imbuing a mellow calm and stirs carnal appetites. A masked man plucks away a sultry tune on his lute in a corner as the night gradually gives way to passionate bodies tangled among the pillows.
𑁍The Courtyard brings a breath of fresh, brisk air as snow falls playfully overhead. Large braziers line the yard offer meager warmth from their roaring fires as exiles partake in snow fights and release wishing lanterns bearing your inner most desires into the sky. Steam rolls off the yard's central fountain, which has been fitted to disperse heated water to provide a makeshift heated pool, a perfect place to thaw chilly hands or feet (or just go all in if ye be bold enough.)
A Colder Path
If instead you choose to abstain, it becomes apparent every dream has its limits. The castle beyond the festivities is cold, dim, and abandoned. Behind every door, a drab and empty room (if the handle isn't locked or broken). The keep's gates are closed, the sunken village beyond a frozen wasteland. The further one strays from the warmth and merriment, the colder and darker it becomes.
Isolation breeds madness, too much time spent away from others may lead to paranoia. Figures shift in the dark, a breath tickles the nape of your neck. You may see familiar faces, hear familiar voices, beckoning you to stray further from your path towards uncertain doom: a crooked nail sticking out of the floorboards, a hurried shove off the top of the stairs, a door that opens over the edge of a rocky cliff.
As determined as you may be, the only way out of this dream is through.
ii.
revel:
Trials of Merciful Holly
revel:
Trials of Merciful Holly
(cw:potential for dubcon/noncon, mood-altering.)
As the midwinter evening persists, a visitor long awaited comes knocking at the Great Hall's doors. A tall man emerges with a body molded out of braided wood, bearing thorn-tarnished armor and a tattered crimson cloak. With every step forward, thorned vines that stitch across the walls and floors, blooming with plum purple leaves and small budding flowers.
"The Briar Lord," one exile gasps. "Gregor's returned," another praises tearfully. With a bow, he treats the celebrants of the Lonely Fortress with the innocence of a festive game.
"O' eaters of sin, indulge me in this friendly Midwinter game. Ye have survived a harrowing and for that ye shall be rewarded for purging of thy wickedness. I ask thee this final offering to purge this winter and beget a new spring. Give me thy blood and affection with honor and I shall see this cold vanquished. What I am given, I will return what was given me. Then, in trust and friendship, we shall part."
Bats and Lashes
The Lord's game is a simple marital task held out in the frost covered garden: a duel of branches. Each competitor will be given handful of briar as their weapon. The aim of the game is to whip each other until the thorns of the briar's branches draw blood. The first to draw blood from the opponent is the victor and the blood price paid.
Yet, not all these branches are created equal. A fortunate competitor may be given a Bewitching Branch. Those whipped by this branch will become utterly obsessed and infatuated to whom they've been struck by for a short period of time after, beholden to their branch master until the sting of thorns wane.
Tithe of the Mistle
If you choose not to partake in the Lord's game, the Lord warns that his winter's briar will collect a tithing of affection. The vines that bloomed with his arrival grow rampant behind seeing eyes. Buds turn into flowers, petals shed as they mature into plump white mistle berries that release the sweetest scent to draw you in.
Either you have accidentally stumbled upon the mistle, or it has decidedly grown itself above you without your noticing, but you become bewitched by its scent. As the tricksy bramble coils around your ankles, giving the gentlest of biting from its thorns, it becomes clear that you will be consumed if you do not pay the mistle its tithing. For some, it only takes a kiss, for others, the mistle will demand more. Give it something meaningful. Give it something real, and you will be released.
iii.
respite:
Midwinter Mourning
respite:
Midwinter Mourning
All good dreams must come to an end. The following morning paints a different picture of the Lonely Fortress witnessed in the night's collective dreaming. The Crucible sits under a thick blanket of snow, the waters surrounding the keep have frozen solid. None of the warmth of the night remains; it feels as though the world has died. The whole of the Crucible feels cold, quiet, abandoned.
Every hearth has burned out, every brazier snuffed under the snow, every candle smothered. It's quiet, empty, dark. Daylight may have come, but a thick layer of storm clouds casts a foreboding shadow. If the desire remains to leave, it quickly becomes apparent there is nowhere else to go.
Warm Winter's Kiss
With luck, you have woken in a bed under a pile of old furs to keep some semblance of warmth with you. With even better luck, you've woken next to company to keep each other warm throughout a cruel cold morning. Without proper protection, the cold is biting against exposed skin. Joints and limbs become stiff and numb, making it difficult to move around without constant tending if one lacks gloves.Breakfast is served, but it's nothing remotely glamorous to the feasting offered by the Midwinter dream: simple porridge that leaves a stale taste that coats the tongue, nuts and fruits that are half rancid, boiled wine that's been watered down to detract from how far along it's turned into vinegar. Its only promise is to fill an empty stomach until more food can be found.
While hearths can be re-lit and heated baths can be drawn, the true comfort from freezing can only be found in the close company of other living creatures. Exiles on this cruel morning keep each other warm through sharing heated breaths and pressing bodies. Expressions of passion and compassion help the warmth to linger just a bit longer for those who cultivate it together, granting brief autonomy of movement before finding another's heat is needed again.
Outside, the snow begins to fall again. An omen that this winter is here to stay. Welcome to the real Martyr's Crucible.
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( and for once he doesn't make it about hockey, doesn't take the teasing that way.
instead he takes a moment to look down at Shane, to take in the sight of him from the flush creeping down his chest to the parted lips and then to his freckles. Ilya leans in, presses his lips to the bridge of Shane's nose and then his cheek. ) Like this?
Keep your arms still, ( he orders, curious to see what happens when he slides his hands down Shane's arms. one stops at his shoulder, the other slides down to the muscle of his pec to grope and knead without giving his nipples attention. he waits for an annoyed little keen, for any sort of sign of frustration before he chuckles against Shane's skin and gives them what they both want.
and that is very much a kiss, a press of his lips to a pouting set as Shane chases friction by trying to press his hips to Ilya's ass. it's gentle at first, yes, but it grows ever hungrier. they've only been asleep a night, surely, but it feels like so long since they've been awake at the same time and he's missed kissing Shane. though if asked, Ilya wouldn't admit that he misses kissing Shane the second he's stopped. )
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[ But the command jolts through Shane like a white-hot spark and he swallows, looking up at Ilya with a little nod he doesn't even mean to give him. He keeps his arms still like he's told to, pinned to the old mattress and stale blankets underneath them, all thoughts of whether they're clean enough to do this on completely erased. Ilya's hands travel over him and still Shane stays still, chest heaving a little with a shaky breath as the Russian manhandles him, kneads his pec until he's sensitive and squirming, until Shane finally lets out an impatient whine like a dog.
And then Ilya kisses him, and all is forgiven. ]
Fuck, Ilya--
[ Whispered between kisses, lips already wet as the attention grow more demanding, more ravenous. Shane is already hard, humiliated by how fast the other can get him going, apparently no matter the dire situation they're in. They've found each other, they're warm now, the haven't seen a single other soul yet and he can't even care. Shane wants so badly to wrap his arms around Ilya, to hold him, but he's been told not to. Neither can he wrap his legs around him the way Ilya has him pinned.
As a result, the way Shane nips at Ilya's lips, the way he sucks at his tongue, all becomes more and more desperate. The tempting moans he lets out every time they part are all but begging. ]
Are you gonna fuck me? Here?
[ He doesn't realize how badly he needs it until he asks, then he knows that if he doesn't get it he'll lose his fucking mind. He needs to turn his brain off, to be nothing but Ilya's toy for the next twenty minutes. If Shane has to think about any of this before Ilya tires him out, if he's left all worked up like this, he'll simply go crazy. ]
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he licks into Shane's mouth, sucks his tongue and moans back when Shane does but he's always been the quieter of the two until they're both coming undone.
when it aches to breathe, it's Shane's neck that gets the attention and Ilya works at the tendon of his neck -- catches it between his teeth and doesn't bite. but then Shane asks and Ilya stutters, pulls back enough to shuffle down and work a thigh between Shane's legs. he feels the outline of Shane's arousal, rocks down into him and rolls his body until they're pressed chest-to-chest. he's hard too, couldn't not be when he has Shane like this beneath him. ) Yes.
Here. Anywhere. I'll fuck you until you can't remember where you are, ( he promises, voice thick with arrousal and accent growing deeper. He wants to fuck him, wants to lose himself and see Shane lost as he presses inside him. he lifts his head, looks around the room as a realisation hits him-- ) We need lube. And-- Do they have condoms whenever this is?
( whenever this is. what the fuck. Ilya hasn't fucked anyone else in months, neither has Shane. he knows that but they haven't had that conversation yet, so he thinks of the condoms to avoid a mess on the furs that'll mean they need to dump the current set. )
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He still doesn't move his arms, he's not allowed, but now Shane can tangle his legs with Ilya's, can wriggle against him to make their fit tighter. He grins like he's won when he feels Ilya's cock against his thigh and grinds against him, encouraging, Ilya is touching him, promising to fuck him until he can't think, until-- ]
I-- I don't... know? Shit.
[ Suddenly going cold at the thought that they don't have what they need, the things they've always had when the fuck, Shane sits up and breaks the rule. He leans up on his elbows on the mattress, looks around the room like he's thinking clearly for the first time since waking up, because he is.
Well, almost. He can never think clearly once Ilya has gotten him hard. It's like he has the key to Shane's rational mind and simply locks it out when he wants his attention. ]
Check the bedside table, maybe someone else...? [ It seems like an insane thought, why would anyone who lives in a decrepit old castle have what they're looking for? They don't even have duvets, they definitely don't have condoms... And how can they fuck without them? They've never done that before, never even talked about it... ]
Fuck. [ Shane's upper body falls back against the bed, impossibly horny and suddenly defeated. ] I want you so fucking bad...
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he presses Shane in the bedding until he doesn’t — pulls away to follow the suggestion and dig around in the dresser. he comes back with oil, nothing else and brows furrowed. the vial is in his hands, heating in his palms. there’s no condoms. which—- is— it’s something.
they haven’t taken that step yet, haven’t talked about it. three days ago they said the word “boyfriends” and made plans. barebacking is a big commitment, even though neither of them have slept with anyone else in months.
which is the fact that Ilya thinks of as he sits on the bed again, crawls over Shane again to press a kiss to his cheek. ) We have both only been together for last few months, yes? And you have been tested also, yes?
( and so it doesn’t sound accusatory because between them Ilya is the one who’s has more partners than he can count. ) I have. Been tested.
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He comes back holding a bottle and Shane's heart leaps pathetically, hopeful in a way that makes his dick throb in his briefs, as eager as the rest of him to be touched again. But when he just sits on the bed Shane sits up properly, scooches over to him to see what he's found.
Then for a second Shane can barely follow Ilya's train of thought, can't make sense of the questions he's asking. Tested? Has he been...? Oh. Oh, no. ]
No, I... I haven't?
[ Shane's not sure why he asks it like a question. He's never even thought about it before. He and Ilya have always been safe, he's the only man - the only person other than Rose that he's ever been with. He realizes with a sinking feeling what Ilya is telling him, and worse, what he'll have to tell him in return.
If that's indeed what he's suggesting. ]
I've never been... [ He swallows, stares very hard at the muscles in Ilya's thighs, at the way they make the shorts he's in bulge at the seams. He can't look at him now as he admits this. ] You know I haven't... been with anyone. But you. That way. [ And when he finally looks up at him it's with incredibly shy trepidation, like there's a good chance Ilya is going to think he's pathetic, some loser that's sat around pining for him for years.
It's true, but that just makes it worse. Maybe that's why he brings up her name right after: ]
Just you and Rose.
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Ilya waits for Shane to speak, one hand cupping his cheek he looks up. he trails a thumb over his cheekbone, tracing over beloved freckles. he wants to kiss each one, map every single freckles on Shane’s body until he has them all memorized. but it’s not the time.
he’s not sure what Shane is nervous about, why he looks so nervous. if he gets what Ilya is asking. he tries to keep it casual, to ask in a way that doesn’t match the sudden nervousness in his chest. the giddiness, the way it makes his cock jump in his briefs. they feel too tight and all he wants is to peel them away, to peel Shane’s off and get rid of any barrier between them. ) Only me and Rose?
( he repeats it anyway, as if it’s a gift that Shane’s given him. he drops the hand from Shane’s cheek and reaches for his hand and interlaces their fingers; lifts them to his lips to kiss Shane’s knuckles to keep himself from crawling over and knocking Shane back into the bed and having his way. soon — soon. ) And condoms also? Two terrible times with Rose you won’t tell me about?
And it means we are both clean, no? ( he raises his brows, hoping that he’s helpful. )
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[ Only him in the way it really counts. He can say it because the way Ilya is looking at him makes Shane feel like prey, about to be devoured - but in a good way. In the best way, in a way that makes him feel like Ilya has never looked at anyone else but him, even if he knows it isn't true. That's the whole reason they're talking about this, isn't it?
But it doesn't matter. It couldn't matter to Shane less, not when Ilya twines their fingers together and kisses his knuckles, but he's asking him again about wearing condoms and yeah, he did, he'd made sure, why is he asking--? ]
Yeah, I wore them, but that's not--
[ There's confusion in his eyes as Ilya strokes his face, as Shane brings a hand up to hold the one holding his cheek, but then understanding fully locks in when Ilya's eyebrows do the communicating. Shane's belly tightens at the thought, cock twitching where it's pinned to his leg in his underwear. The way he searches Ilya's face with wide eyes is guileless, equal parts unsure and incredibly turned on.
It's the expression of someone who trusts him completely to know what's right for them. ]
You wanna fuck me without one? Is that it?
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You haven't had this. I haven't had this. We can have first together, yes? ( and if he speaks with a cocky lilt to his words, the accent probably gives him away and the flush creeping down Ilya's neck as he makes his move to knock Shane back down to the bed so that he can crawl over him again. it's perhaps cheating to lean in to kiss his neck, to hide his face and the vulnerability there with chasing the soft gasps he knows he can draw out from Shane's throat.
Ilya's better at being a doer than a talker, not good with vulnerability though the man underneath him has seen him cry more times in the last few months than anyone in his life.
he slots hip to hip again, rocks down ward as he catches the tendon on the side of Shane's neck between his teeth and works at the skin. )
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God, he loves it when his accent gets heavy like that. The sound hits Shane like a punch in the gut. ]
Yes. [ A first time, together. Just for the two of them. Shane can't agree fast enough, nods and then nods again and keeps fucking nodding as Ilya dives for his throat, as he starts dragging his teeth in the way that Shane loves until he pulls mewling little whines instead of words out of him. ] Yes. Fuck me. Just like this.
Please.
[ He cries out the last word as Ilya bites him, grinding up against his leg as he lets Ilya slot it between his thighs. Shane wants out of his briefs, wants Ilya out of his, but he only lets his hands wander down Ilya's smooth, muscular back, mapping him to distract himself from his own pathetically throbbing cock. ]
You've really... never done this with anyone? Ever? [ Shane's heart flutters when he asks, desperate to hear Ilya say it again. Desperate to have one single 'first' of Ilya's be all his. Forever. ]
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Ilya's not a religious man despite the cross he hasn't noticed isn't dangling around his neck, isn't pressed against Shane's pec and warmed by his skin. He isn't. But he thinks if there's a thing as heaven, it feels a lot like what being wrapped up in Shane Hollander feels like.
And he's so fucking tired of denying himself, so fucking amazed that he doesn't have to. That the mark on Shane's neck that he leaves, the bite shaped bruise he licks and sucks is his to leave. That Shane mewls and moans, whines for him and begs with his body. Ilya hasn't even done anything but the heat in his own gut is near overwhelming, nearly too much. He pulls his hips back, hissing at the loss.
But he keeps himself busy, pulls at the fabric of Shane's briefs and shimmies them down his legs. Maybe moving down with the action wills top him from cumming in his briefs like a teenager instead of the grown man he is, about to fuck his boyfriend raw. No. Not fuck. Well, yes, but--
He tosses the briefs aside and shucks off his own, kneels at and of the bed and watches Shane for a moment. Takes him in spread on the bedding. Then he moves, near feline and prowling. Ilya slides a hand up Shane's calf, lifts his leg so he can press his lips to his ankle. ) Who would I do this with?
( he presses a kiss to Shane's calf, to the inside of his knee as he crawls back up between his legs and spreads out to lay between them like he does when he preps him open. A kiss to the inside of his thigh, right above the knee: ) Who if not you? There was no one else I wanted like this. No one I want now.
( A kiss higher, another above it on his inner thigh. ) I want only you.
( And then he offers relief, wraps his fingers around Shane's straining cock to stroke him slow. )
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Without a condom. Just your-- just your raw cock inside me.
[ He'd heard Ilya say it like that, sort of, once. A long time ago when Ilya had had a few shots with his team before coming to see Shane and had been talking messy in his ear before finally getting a condom out of the nightstand. He lifts his hips to help Ilya get them both naked, hoping he'd said the right thing, knowing he has when Ilya just watches him. Just stares at all his smooth skin half-buried in all these musty furs. Shane bites his lip, loving every moment of being taken in by him. Just watching him finally move towards him makes Shane let out a little whine of anticipation.
But who would he want to do this with? Her name flashes through Shane's mind, it's on the tip of his tongue before he bites it back. Just because he think he knows an answer doesn't mean he has to actually say it. He's finally learned that, at least in situations like this.
And if Ilya is telling the truth, it means he's never... Not even with Svetlana. ]
I only want you, too. Only you.
[ Ilya peppers kisses up his legs, up his inner thigh and Shane is holding his breath by the time the Russian takes his aching cock in his rough hand to stroke him. Shane's legs fall open as his heels drag farther up on the bed, opening himself up so Ilya can see where they're headed next. Where Shane desperately wants him. ]
You-- you think what you found will be enough? [ Shane's still not sure about that bottle of oil but his brain can't be hesitant right now. The question comes out too eager and he reaches down to stroke the side of Ilya's face, to card his fingers through his short curls. ] Fuck, Ilya, I need you...
cw: it's breeding kink but shaming himself
Yes, you're mine. So easy for me and desperate, ( Ilya croons, more talking than wanting to rile Shane up with the words but it's true. He can see the desperation in his boyfriends eyes, knows it mirrors in his own but Ilya's takes a different form. Shane is doe-eyed, trembling like a prey animal who can't contain himself and Ilya is a wolf drooling over him.
His hand tightens on Shane's cock on the upstroke, thumb rubbing over the tip as the other man grows wetter. ) I think so but with how wet you get, does it matter?
( It's teasing, it's a little mean. But he turns to press a kiss into Shane's palm, chaste and easy. He has to let go of Shane's arousal to reach for the vial with both hands. He uncorks it, is pretty sure that there's enough but he'll be able to find more. He asks as he pours the oil on his fingers, warming it up before he's trailing the pad of his index finger down Shane's taint, circles his hole and presses without pressing in. ) Can you handle my mouth on you, lyubimyy? I want you to come when I'm in you.
( Ilya is pretty sure with how hard he is, cock straining and tip red, he's not going to last very long. He's never done this before. He's had the oppurtunity but even with his hook-ups, the consequences hadn't been worth the hassle. The few times he'd had to slink off to a pharmacy to buy Plan B because a condom broke had been lesson enough. And as much as Ilya embraces that he's what some might call a slut, there's some things he's a bit of a romantic about. This is one of them. This is special. This is something he's associated with a future, a family. He knows he'll have to adjust a part of that mental model in the conventional sense -- he doesn't linger on the spike of arousal at the impossible thought of fucking a baby into Shane because what the fuck -- but the part of the future is the same.
He presses a kiss to Shane's thigh first, then noses at the base of his cock where the scent of his arousal is thickest. )
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Now, he's able to show him everything. To trust him completely with what he wants. To let his thighs flex when Ilya plays with the tip of his cock just the right way and Shane oozes in response, slicking up under Ilya's thumb until it all has Shane gasping, hips wriggling against the bed. He's an instrument being played and he knows he should chirp back, but all he can do is swear and moan: ]
Fuck, Ilya--
[ The way he says his name is like a prayer, like a benediction he's only lately earned the right to say. One he can't seem to say enough. But he actually cries out when Ilya pulls his hand off of him and Shane doesn't think he can stand the embarrassment until his mouth is suddenly dry watching Ilya coat his fingers with the oil that Shane can't allow himself to wonder about the origins of. It's easily the stupidest thing he's ever done, he decides somewhere in the back of his mind, but he wants this too badly to turn back now.
And something about the desperation is so fucking hot, especially when Ilya is teasing him with a touch, pressing like he's waiting to be let in. As if Shane can deny him. ]
I can handle it. Fuck, I want that too, I wanna feel you... [ He flexes his hips, lifting off the mattress slightly only to rut his hole back down against Ilya's fingers. Asking, giving permission. He can't have Ilya's cock in him until they've warmed up, he's always been too big for that, so stop wasting time and finger him already! His expression, his shiny dark eyes are begging for it, even as Ilya ducks down to nose at his cock. ]
I wanna feel you come. Inside me. I wanna know how it feels...
[ Even without being touched, another shiny bead of precum leaks from the tip of Shane's cock at the thought. He's still standing straight in the air, aching, as impatient as the rest of him. Betraying how little Ilya will be able to toy with him before Shane is in the danger zone. ]